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1.
Thresholds 06:30
And I know Things will be different from now Standing here, days turn to fall From the inside looking out Though a fogging window I behold Shadows cloaking the ground To cover our memories and doubts And end this small seed of hope That we struggle to build on our own And I know With summer gone I could not hold You and your everlasting grace for my soul And your hand so strong on my cheek And the shelter of your embrace And I know As nights grew cold so did our hearts Like branches forsaking their bloom Casting dead leaves to the ground And I still see you slipping into the unknown And I know as they said by little chance it meant no Faith is reversible, time isn’t though Hope becomes a burden now Like a floating weight holding us down And I know it wasn’t worth the try But it felt so wrong not to hope You could stay with me, come back to me You’d intervene, destroy our fears Restore our years And I know, maybe mostly means to When we’re exposed unto this grace unknown I cannot follow you where you go This road you must pass on our own But It tore my soul apart And lost my faith that day Till there’s something left, a trembling scale, a desperate wish The answer always was and will always be: No And I know, Though your shadow vanished days ago I still stare at the edge of this glow Sobered and alone And I know From rotten leaves new life will grow Like a heritage echoing forth Your words like a promise still glowin' Keeping me going
2.
Floods 09:57
I have been crowned again Crowned with despair and shame I’ve lost my mind I’ve lost my sight I’ve lost what once was home Again I've lost it all Again the siren’s call Again I’m dancing to the anthem of my grieving soul Again the rain has come Again all hope is gone And again you’re here with me Into the dark you called me The place our souls are free Here where the floods arise I can be at your side These waves will ease your pain Wash away the remains Close your eyes Hold your breath Take this dive And here we are again On this shore of pain again And still I trust in you The tide will fall for us again In sorrow we will stand And still I trust in you Our eyes are filled with fear again And I will grasp your hand And still I trust in you The floods are calling us again These wounds we cannot mend And still I trust in you My friend Again our knees give in Again we bleed and sink Again like blades the rain is grazing our freezing skin Again your words they calm Again they keep me warm And again you’re here with me Unto this shore I called you I searched these floods for you Here where despair resides Where dreamers feel alive I’ll stay within your arms Until this night is through In this floods there is darkness There is death And there is you We conquered these floods We conquered ourselves
3.
Waiting for another sunset Tired and distressed My mind is full of void Of nothingness and you Staring at the ceiling Sleep denies his grace To cover me with darkness Before despair ensnares my mind To hope is what they tell me Believe me this I do For better gods to bless my sin For better drugs to numb my head And for a blackout from within And I don’t need your knife To make me feel in pain I reject It’s all within, The fear, the grief And the memory of your name As I drift into despair In this wakeful nightmare My mind it bursts with hate Stomach compensates I hate you I worship you I grieve for you I sense your tears I strike your fears I wake for you I lie blandly in this haste Fueled by sleeplessness and rage As you overload my brain With nothingness and you And they say it’s all for show But I’m the one exposed And tell me how to end this game When I’m the one that’s played Why do you rape my mind with sorrow and despair But never speak to me
4.
Innuendo 05:29
He woke up that day With the urge to make a change He was searching for words Mindful words To get out of this cage And then he whispered no Just one word to to let her know He would rather be left alone Without a sound he whispered No So implied and so unsure Leaving options open for his own Between cowardice and courage The adventure the assured The path was getting narrow Leaving no space for two And so he whispered no Two letters to let her know He would rather be left alone Constantly he repeated No So implied, so unassured Staking claims, gaining control From manic heights he hit the ground A last attempt to turn around He found himself like in a fall So afraid to lose it after all You are not the only one On this path you're stumbling on Is this decision only yours Oh how I just don’t don’t know Are you afraid to lose her I just cannot let her... And finally she responded No With a voice so self-assured She would rather be left alone She took her chance and stated No She took over control And left him trapped All on his own
5.
Destroyed 06:58
So here it comes my argument I know you may not understand Why I prefer to be erased From this life I feel misplaced Don’t get me wrong I won’t fade Cause I don’t want to be bewailed Or hurt the ones I care for now And leave them here all alone What I want is to not exist To be erased right from your list What I want is to be destroyed Return unto the endless void No sign that I was ever born When I am dead no one to mourn Forgotten now I want to be Wiped out my identity You say my words may be absurd And even tell my songs they hurt Life is a blessing we receive But sadly I cannot believe My pain is of the knowing why Anxiety I can’t deny My conscience got to know the truth Therefore I have no excuse I signed a contract full of fraud Forever now will I be caught Boncealed the terms it’s all about This hellfire I can’t opt out In earthly joy I won’t delight And death is just a shocking fright A candle burning from both ends For my sin there’s no amends You say my words are so insane But they told me me, who am I to blame A gospel better not to be heard Good news leaving you disturbed I live under the floating rage Impenitent inside this cage My saviour I forsake your path Ready to receive your wrath And I don’t want life eternally And I don’t want to cut and bleed And I know death can’t set me free And Nothingness is what I seek
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7.
Beyond 05:54
Everyday’s another threat You say it's only in my head Now you see my tranquilized A raging monster hypnotized I used to key up towards insanity Now I’m heading for indifference Everything was all-important Now everything‘s absurd And all the world that haunted me It needled me, and turned its back on me And those voices that approached me In this silence they left me here And every night you fall asleep Thoughts break loose, I can no longer keep I see your face so full of confidence And I am anxious it’s in vain You are weary I am numbed You take your chances While I take my pills You know sadness I know despair And You compare How do you dare You say someday I’ll feel again Oh add this pressure to my pain These chemicals inside my veins They may impress you but not my brains And every night you fall asleep Thoughts break loose, I can no longer keep I see your face so full of confidence And I am anxious it’s in vain You are weary I am numbed You take your chances While I take my pills You know sadness I know despair And You compare How do you dare to. And I don’t fear what’s in the past And I don’t fear what is to come This enemy is so temporary And so ridiculous And he’s always here Save me I’m drowning in despair Believe in me I’m frozen to myself Trust me It’s just acids in my head And Stay with me Beyond this misery
8.
Strangers 06:34
And in this eerie chamber Where light and mercy flee There is no great escape There's only them and me Their chanting getting louder Hunting for my soul again A funeral procession I know I'm easy prey And now it's getting closer I’m paralized by fear And I’m beyond redemption I feel my time is here And now your hand won’t reach me And now I’ve come too far I feel their comdemnation And slowly I’m posessed by Their hands Their eyes Their tongues Their might Their cold Their shame Their rope Their lies Their knife Their hate Their grief Their chains Their drugs are running through my veins Their sorrow Their decree remains I am cursed by these strangers Gatherering inside my head Their fingers point And I agree Their staring eyes I know it's time As they accuse And I confess I know something needs to die And now their lies ensnare me Blaring inside my head I’m seized by desperation And I’m forced to obey There's no determination There's only destiny My time has come to end it No more to be plagued by Their hands Their eyes Their tongues Their might Their cold Their shame Their rope Their lies Their knife Their hate Their grief Their chains Their lies are yelling through my brains Their scars Their thorns Their mask Their scent Their dark Their book Their teeth Their end Their blade Their scorn Their force Their nails Their poison running through my veins Their sorrow Their decree remains I am cursed by these strangers Gatherering inside my head Their fingers point And I agree Their staring eyes I know it’s time As they accuse And I confess I know something needs to die And it's not me
9.
Alright 06:29
Good to know you are alright Yes so am I tonight So why would I tell you How darkness clouds my mind From time to time And why would I tell you Of fears that surround me in the night And of the dreams I laid aside And of the scars I hide I carefully hide Why would I do this Why would I do this to you And why would you take your time and listen for a while And it wouldnt feel so awkward as I would start to cry Cause I could find your comfort and solace in your arms And you would share my sorrow and you would cry with me And our tears would build an ocean where we drown our fears So why would I do this Why should I let you know Why should I tell you? And I would sit beside you And open up my mind For the memories that haunt you And the loneliness inside And when you say, we all wander through darkness I can’t deny that you are right But I deny that you are forced to go alone And I am on your side But why should I tell you Why would I let you know Why should I do this? So why should I Tell you that I cherish you And you make me feel alive And the scars you wear are window to your soul To flood your life with light And we could share each other's company And the silence wouldn’t hurt And from weakness blossoms empathy The real therapy And when sorrow overcomes me self hatred setting in I could feel your strength inside me Sending shivers down my skin And we could dance upon our grief Till the sun ascends the dawn In the gloomy morning light We would be alright Just like you are tonight See you next time

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